Devil in my head

[Kelsey Gray]

“Devil in my head”
Fear of the dance
Clawing desperately in the dark
Body covered in a thick sheen of sweat
Pain, Excruciating Pain
A nightmare perhaps, please let it only be a
Nightmare
Leaping to my feet, I realize it’s not.
Clenching my teeth
Hearing them crack under the pressure
Feeling the burning again, the fire
Here we go again, no
NO, NOT AGAIN!!
Slipping silently past my sleeping family,
God watch over them while I dance with the
Devil
Tonight
Again
Just like every other night
Let them sleep and never see the pain
Never
Almost running in circles
Head tilted over my shoulders
Hands numb from pressing
Harder on my skull
no relief no relief no relief
WHY?
Silently Screaming with the pain
Falling to the floor and
begging God to take me
release me
forgive me for whatever wrong I did
to deserve this torture
Pure Torture
This evil that won’t leave me alone
An eternity of dancing
The beast stepping on my toes,
while he drives his dark fingers
into my eye
my skull
my temple
pushing my teeth out of my jaw
and burning them before they can hit the floor
Please no more,
Let me die.
Like a switch,
I feel what I was longing for,
another tear streams down my cheek
only this one is relief.
Falling to the floor
Exhausted
Daring to never sleep again
For fear of dancing again tonight
alone
very alone
It’s coming and it can’t be stopped.
I am enslaved and awaiting your torture
one more time, one more time

[Cora-Mari Strydom]

So true….

[Cora-Mari Strydom]

I just pace the floor
and beg for no more

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